I read that early on most babies develop an attachment to some sort of comfort object. She didn't show signs of attachment until recently. In fact, it seems like the more bottles we took away, the more attached she became to the blankie. Hmmm... I never thought of it that way before. I wonder if it is truly connected. It would make sense because bottles had definitely become a source of comfort for her.
When I was young I had a small, stuffed doll. It was actually a pillow in the shape of a doll, the front and back simply sewn together and stuffed. I called her Annie. We had a german shorthair at the time (this was prior to the development of my extreme allergy to all animals) and he rather enjoyed ripping Annie to pieces at every available opportunity. My mom had a stash of patterns and would quickly sew another one to spare me the devastation.
Aside from my Annie, I also had my blankie and I slept with tucked up under my chin every night until the summer I was twelve. It was in rough shape by then but I would probably still have it if Granny didn't decide I was too old for it. It met its end in a fire ring at a campground in New Jersey.
At any rate, the blankie Punky adores is tan chenille with a little picture of a frog in one corner. It was part of the collection that matches her crib bedding. I loved it from the moment I saw it in the store. It is so incredibly soft, very warm yet light and breathable, and the frog is adorable. I put it on my registry but didn't expect to get it as a gift. To be honest, I thought it was way too expensive for such a little piece of fabric. I never would have bought it if I saw it on someone else's registry, nor would I have gone back and bought it on my own for Punky if I didn't get it at my shower.
But alas, someone did buy it (and I would really need to go back through the list I kept to figure out who) and it ended up being the blankie I used most for Punky right from the start. Thirteen months in to her amazing life, the blankie is starting to fall apart...and her insistence on dragging it all over the place isn't helping one bit. Neither is the fact that she started chewing on it in her crib before falling asleep. I cut long strings off of it almost daily so she doesn't choke or strangle herself. At this rate we'll have a washcloth by spring.
So, unlike my prepared mom with her stash of Annie patterns, I have no back-up blankies for when there's nothing left of this one. My heart sinks thinking about how I'll have to tell her that her blankie's all gone. If she had only gotten attached to regular ol' receiving blankets like my nephew (he calls them his woobies and sleeps with four of them every night). They are easy to come by and a dime a dozen. Sigh.
Last week my guilt got the best of me as I watched her with her blankie...pulling it from her crib, dragging it to the living room, snuggling on the floor and burying her face in it, smiling up at me and looking so happy... The search was on for a back-up blankie.
As I expected, it didn't go well. When I registered for my shower over a year and a half ago, I was informed the bedding set I picked out had been recently discontinued by the manufacturer. I was assured that the stores had plenty of stock yet so people wouldn't have trouble getting the items I wanted in the short term. And they were right, I got most of the matching pieces I wanted for her nursery.
After searching the store site, and then the manufacturer's website directly, and then a whole host of discounted baby stuff sites, I resigned myself to the fact that her blankie was discontinued and completely irreplaceable. I moved on to plan B - searching for a similar chenille baby blanket. I know I can't slip a cheap imitation in without her noticing it is different; I just think she'd warm up to a new blankie quicker if it at least felt the same. But night after night of surfing the web, I wasn't happy with anything I found. I was prepared to call off the search. She'll get over losing her blankie. I did.
A few nights later I went to check on her and watched her sleeping in her crib...all cuddled up with her blankie. A sharp pang of guilt poked me again and I vowed to give it one last shot. In a matter of three minutes...I found her blankie! Not a similar blankie...her exact discontinued blankie! Part of me was expecting a "sorry, this item is no longer available" email, but I got the tracking number today. Yay!I was fully prepared to pay the high price for the blanket, but to my surprise it cost only about a third of the original price. So I ordered three of them. I planned on spending that amount anyway and now I have my stash of back-ups for when disaster strikes the blankie. And I feel like a good mama.