Three Years Of Rambling

Today is three years since I first started rambling on and on in my own little corner of cyberspace.

For the most part, it has served the purposes intended.  I have documented Punky's life and given her a window into her childhood that I hope she can appreciate someday.  I've had an outlet for my thoughts as I deal with the ever-changing journey of motherhood.  I've told funny stories, bitched about the trivial nuisances of daily life, and even worked though some deeply emotional stuff once in a while.  In all honesty though, several times I've considered throwing in the towel.

I surely was mistaken when I thought I would have more time to write as Punky got older.  Maybe there's still hope a few years down the road, but right now I feel like I'm constantly trying to catch up.  And it's so frustrating.  Writing has become a chore simply because I struggle to find the time to do it.  Once I committed to changing my sleep habits about eight months ago, it started going downhill.  Then, when I added in making time to exercise regularly, it got even worse.  The bottom line is that there are only so many hours in the day, and most of them are spoken for right now.  

When I have something worth writing about, I start a post.  A few lines, maybe even a paragraph or two, so I don't forget about it.  Then, something else comes up and I start another one.  Same deal.  Before I know it I have several posts started, and no time to finish any of them.  Usually I end up gluing myself to the chair one weekend a month in a desperate attempt to fill in the blanks and get caught up.  Under those frustrated circumstances, writing is no longer the relaxing, therapeutic activity it once was.  

Ultimately though, I can't quit.  I need this space.  This outlet.  This time, even if it is crammed into a marathon weekend of frantic typing.  It's important to me.  If for no other reason, for Punky.  

Here's to year number four in the blog world.  I'm sure there will be no shortage of material, but time will continue to escape me.  I'll do my best to keep up, and hopefully with a little luck, I'll end up with more than three posts to show for it.